| | I had a very cold realization sitting atop an empty landscape. At times, our lives seem hard because we are faced with challenges that we must overcome, battles we must win, and problems we must fix. But there are also times that we are handed things that we can do nothing about. Things that cannot be overcome, won, or fixed. And these are the hardest of all for humans to endure.
Our lives are not as easy and simple as we want them to be. And perhaps, I am the last person to realize this. And though I am in a state of uneasy numbness, of unwanted coldness, of emotionless hurt, I have come to accept my fate. A fate that I first thought was unfair and cruel, but a closer look tells me it is the way life is. I thought I had come to understand why there are some things that have to be the way they are. But I guess not. It has become particularly hard at these moments in my life. When I feel the most alone, the most abandoned. To know that I have to accept some things in life and that I can't do anything to change the way things are.
But it is also at these moments in my life, that I feel like I have everything. That if I were to die tomorrow, I would smile today. Knowing I had had so many beautiful moments in my life.
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Thank you, Mary.